a friday recap

The last 24 hours have been mentally eventful.

Just as I was about to call it a day yesterday, I got a call from my colleague about the presentation that I was going to deliver today. He went straight to what he'd like me to change and remove. He then went on about how he thought I should deliver my presentation.

It was out of the blue and right at 4:30 pm on a Thursday when I had no energy left. I was completely stunned.

But I also pushed back. As this is a piece of work I have been working on for the past 6 weeks and that I take seriously. I know what I’m doing.

The way he completely rejected my work hurts. I felt really upset.

Grateful to my senior at work for listening to my vent right after. She's supportive of me and it gave me some confidence back. I needed it. Otherwise, I'd had blamed myself for not being good enough.

As always, George is my biggest cheerleader. Forever grateful for him.

The presentation went well, thankfully.

I had a chat with our manager first thing in the morning to seek some support after what happened with my colleague last night. But she took his side so I was disappointed.

I told myself I should stop caring too much.

I made changes to my presentation last minute. Couldn't stop shaking before the meeting.

My presentation was scheduled right in the middle of the agenda so I frustratingly sat through the first half with so much anxiety.

Powered through it with an adrenalin rush and mentally crashed when the meeting finished.

I decided to call it a day at 3:30 pm and made myself sit in the sun on the roof for some fresh air. Nothing cures my soul like sunlight. It's been a rare, completely still winter day in Petone.

The sun filled me up with energy so I got changed and did a 30-minute HIIT workout. It's been over a week since I sweated it out. Today's session was tough on the body but so good for the mind.

A long warm shower and a honey facial mask helped relax me. My favourite self-care routine at the end of the week.

I feel a lot more grounded now. The anxiety has softened and is almost gone.

It's also time to let go of this event and move on with work though.

I want to focus on enjoying this weekend instead. It's forecasted to be full sun.

If it's anything like today, I would be one happy girl.